First Love (Complicated Love Book 1) (8 page)

“Frank, this is something I need to think about and talk with Donna about, but by the grin on her face, I’m guessing she thinks it's a great idea. Let's talk more about it later.”

“No problem. Let me know soon,” Frank says.

It’s hard to say goodbye tonight because I don’t want to leave Shawna, especially with the news of her moving so far away. But Brian promises we’ll see them again before they move.

Once in the car, he wastes no time grabbing my hand. All day, he touched me every chance he got, even if it was only a brief kiss to the head. “Donna, I know it hasn’t been easy having Shawna move away and now hearing she’s moving even farther. I don’t want to get your hopes up, but I’d like to apply for a job at the same law firm as Frank. We need to talk about if my leaving my dad’s firm is what’s best for us in the long run. You’ll always come first. I need you to know that. We’re a team, so we need to make this decision together. Not to be closer to Shawna. We need to do what is best for us.”

That would be so freaking awesome! I don’t say that out loud even though I really want to. What he’s saying about not making the decision to be closer to Shawna is true, but that doesn’t help the sad feeling that she’s moving away and his dad doesn’t want us together. I want Brian in my life, but I can’t be the reason he loses his parents. I never thought I’d be in this position. If Brian has to choose between his parents and me, I’d consider moving to Wisconsin without him because I won’t make him pick one of us. I’d constantly be worried that he’d end up resenting me.

“I know you’re talking about leaving your dad’s office, but it won’t be easy. Even if you do, it still doesn’t make it easy to accept my best friend being farther away from me. The last couple of months without her have been hard. She hasn’t been there to help me when our moms are being pushy about the wedding, to hold my hand when I’m crying because I can’t tell them no. I know I have you, but some things we need our girlfriends for.” 

Brian squeezes my hand, reassuring me he’s here for me. “I didn’t realize quite how bad our moms were. I don’t want you to deal with that alone. This is our wedding, not just yours, and it should be the way we want it, not our parents. I can start helping with some of the planning. They don’t tend to push me around the way they do you.”  He brings my hand up to his lips and kisses my knuckles.

He’s the sweetest man I know. He’d do anything for me.

“Can we stay in town tonight? I need to get some things off my chest, but I don’t want to do it while we’re driving.” I pray that he says yes.

“Sure. I was hoping you wouldn’t mind, but I already reserved a room at this bed and breakfast about thirty minutes away. I wanted to be somewhere cozy.”

God, does this man think of everything? “That’ll be wonderful. Hopefully, we can get some relaxing in tonight and not only talk about life.”

“I don’t plan on us talking all night. After you hear what I have to say and see what I want to show you, you’ll be pissed, but I need you to have an open mind and make your own opinions on what you’ll see. I want your honest thoughts.”

I’m beginning to wonder if I can watch this video. Seeing and hearing the little I did in person was bad enough. I don’t want to see more, but I have to so I can know beyond a reasonable doubt that it wasn’t my Brian in the office with Janice. Why couldn’t Brian tell me all of this before he had evidence? I know he said he wanted proof so I didn’t think he was making stuff up, but I want to be the person he goes to when he has problems.

I must’ve dozed off, because the next thing I hear is, “Hun, we’re here. Let’s get settled in the room. We can talk, or you can go to bed. You must be exhausted.”

Is he trying to get out of showing me the video? Why?

I can’t go back to sleep now that we’re here. “No, we need to talk first. Hopefully, I’ll sleep in tomorrow.” I’m so exhausted that I’ll probably wish to be in bed for a week after we deal with his parents.

“Let’s go, shall we?” Brian says, holding his hand out to me.

I grab it, and he leads me into the most fabulous bed and breakfast I’ve ever seen. The first thing I notice is the cozy-looking fire in the lobby. It is straight out of movie, with the bear skin rug in front of it. The place has an old-school feel, beautiful, but not to the point where you feel you can’t touch anything or sit on the furniture.

“Wow, it’s beautiful, Brian. Where did you find it?”

“Frank told me about it. This is where he brought Shawna when he proposed to her. He said she loved it. Since you two are best friends and have similar tastes, I thought it’d be a good place for us to check out.  I know you aren’t a huge fan of the fancy hotels.”

“I feel so bad Shawna didn’t get to tell me all about her engagement right after it happened or even when she first saw me. I ruined her happy time.” I blink to fight back the tears threatening to escape.

“Hey, don’t cry. She knows you needed her. She wanted to help you out and be there for you. Don’t worry. I made plans with Shawna and Frank. They’re going to come out and visit us so we can celebrate their engagement together. Frank already knows what I have to tell you, so he’ll tell Shawna tonight as well. I’m going to go check us in. Do you want to sit by the fire or come with me?”

“Sit by the fire.” This is one thing I wish we had in our apartment. I love snuggling up by a fire with a good book.

I feel like I’ve just sat down by the time Brian’s back.

“Here’s our room key. Why don’t you head up to the room and take a bath while I go get our bags out of the car then grab us something to drink.”

“I’d rather talk first. Let’s get it done and over with so we can see what’s going to happen with us. I don’t know how to feel about everything that happened two days ago and then everything you dropped on me last night.” I shouldn’t be so worried, but I don’t want to watch the video.

What happens if it really is him and he’s playing a sick joke on me?  No, he wouldn’t do something like that.

I head up to the second floor and walk into our room. There’s only a king-size bed, but I’m sure, if I asked him to, he’d sleep on the couch. He’s that kind of guy.

I let out a deep breath. My stomach is in knots worrying about what’s going to happen. All we’ve been doing is delaying the inevitable, and now. We need to get it over with.

I better use the bathroom before he gets back to the room so we can get right to the topic at hand. Who really was in his office on Thursday at lunchtime?

I walk into the bathroom and almost regret saying no to a bath. There’s a Jacuzzi tub big enough to fit four people. I’m definitely going to take advantage of that before we leave, and maybe Brian will join me if we can work our issues out. I have so many ideas of how those jets can be of very naughty use. One can only hope.

Thoughts of sharing a bath with Brian and relieving the stress of the last few days sends my mind into a fantasy.

I’m here all alone, wishing Brian were with me. Thinking how much fun this tub can be has me horny and in need of some relief. Maybe I can take care of myself while he’s gone and then have him later when he gets back to the room. Slowly, I run my hand up my abdomen to my breasts. I caress them, flicking my nipples before I switch between pinching and pulling them. An electric current shoots down to my pussy. I need more though. Slowly, I run one of my hands down my abdomen and circle my clit.

“Uh, god, that feels so good,” I breathe.

I need more and decide to see what these jets can do for me. I slide down until I’m in centered before one of the jets and let the steady pressure hit my clit. Fuck, this won’t take long. I pull on my nipple even harder while inserting two fingers into my pussy. I grind against my hand while the jet massages my clit.

“Brian!” I scream out my release.

“That was so fucking hot. I may need to join you now.”

Brian’s words jolt me out of my post-orgasmic haze.

“Oh shit. I didn’t realize you were here. I needed relief, and I didn’t know when you’d be home.”

“Shhh. You don’t need to explain yourself. That was the hottest thing I’ve ever seen. But, now, I need you.”

“Please. I want you,” I say, needing more. Getting myself off is never as satisfying as the relief he gives me.

“Hey, Donna? Where are you?” Brian calls out as he walks into the room.

I hope he doesn’t think I left. Shit, that was a fucking hot daydream, and he had to interrupt me right before the good part.

“In the bathroom. I’ll be right out.” I finish washing up and head out to the living room, feeling very unsatisfied. Again.

M
y heart broke from the expression on Donna’s face when I explained my father’s betrayal. I didn’t want to upset her, but she needed to know that it wasn’t me in my office yesterday. And that I love her. I really didn’t want her to watch the video. I could barely stomach it and had to turn it off. I ended up pausing it on their faces so she knew it wasn’t me. She was okay with not having to watch any video and relive it again. The still shot was enough for her.

I still don’t know what my dad had to gain or if he was just getting his rocks off with Janice one time, but I have a feeling it’s more than a one-time thing. I can’t predict how he’ll react when I tell him I’m leaving, but I have to get away. Because of my talk with Frank, I’m hoping I can get a job with him, and then we’ll eventually open our own law office.

After showing Donna the video I couldn’t sleep with worry over how she was really feeling, so it’s been one long night for me. I didn’t sleep much. I kept thinking about what was going to happen when we got to my parents’ house, and then I couldn’t stop looking at Donna. I don’t know how I got so lucky to have her, but I’m going to do whatever I can to keep her. She deserves all of me, and I need to start showing her that work isn’t everything.

Since I couldn’t sleep well, I decided I needed to call Bill. I’m not sure if he knows anything yet, but he should have a heads-up. I figure knowing more about what is happening at the office is probably a good thing before I go in with guns blazing to my parents’ house.

I hope to get a lot of information from Bill. Information I probably don’t want to know, but it may seal my fate in where I lie with the firm.

“Hello. Bill speaking.”

“Hello, Bill. It’s Brian. I’m sorry to bother you so early. Do you have a minute to talk?”

“Yes, is everything all right?  Did something happen to Donna?”

“No, Donna is fine. But everything isn’t all right.

That’s why I’m calling you.”

“Okay. What’s the problem?”

How do I say this?  Being blunt is the only way I can do this.

“So, over the last couple of weeks, I’ve been noticing Janice sneaking around with files and then locking them up. Since she’s my secretary, that shouldn’t be happening. I have a feeling they pertain to my dad. I found him and Janice screwing in my office. I’m not sure why or what they had to gain. Do you have any idea what’s going on?”  Please let him know something. I know there’s something else going on.

“Yes, I have a feeling I know what you’re talking about. It looks as if we need to talk. I tried to keep it from you, which obviously didn’t work. I didn’t want to bring you into your father's issues.”

Shit, I knew this couldn’t be good. But, as Bill continues to tell me everything he knows, I shouldn’t be shocked my dad would do something like this. It sickens me, and I can’t wait to get to his house now.

“Thank you, for telling me everything. I can’t believe he’d do this to you though. Donna and I will be over in the next couple of days.”

“Good luck, Brian. See you in a couple days.”

I need to let out some steam, so I decide to take a walk before waking Donna. But I don’t stay gone long because I want to get this taken care of.

“Hey, baby. Wake up.” It’s still early, but I want to get on the road so we can deal with this crap and move on.

She barely budges. She’s one of the hardest people to wake up. She is not a morning person. Though, if I had freshly brewed coffee, she’d be all over it.

“Love, you need to wake up,” I say as I kiss her neck.

Hopefully, she doesn’t mind what I have planned next, but I need her. I want her. I need to show her that she’s my world and the only woman I want. She hasn’t budged yet. Perfect.

I slowly kiss a trail down her neck to her chest. I don’t want her fully awake yet, so I leave her succulent nipples for later. While tracing my tongue around her navel, I feel her body respond to me. She’s not fully awake, but she’s getting there. I need to get her panties off before she wakes. I want to wake her with my face buried between her thighs.

As I slowly slide her panties off, trailing kisses as I go. Once I have them off, I kiss my way back up lingering on her thighs.

She’s waking up and squirming. “Please don’t stop,” she begs.

I kiss up her thigh until I reach her pussy. I circle my tongue around her clit, and she pushes herself against my face.

“You want more?” I ask. “Tell me what you want.”

“You. Inside. Me.” She’s panting.

“Oh, don’t you worry. I’ll get there.” I suck her clit while I pump my fingers into her. I won’t take her until she comes. I can’t take my pleasure until she’s had hers. “I can feel how close you are. Your pussy is squeezing my fingers.”