Chasing Love & Rainbows (10 page)

She replied, “73007 N.W. 12th Avenue.”

“I’ll be there in ten minutes,” I said. I fell on back of the bed and exhaled.  This day just keeps getting more surprises by the minute.

Leon’s ass knows everything else, but why couldn’t he tell me I had another sister out there? I know my mom is rolling in her grave right now. I picked up the phone to call Porsche and Patrice and asked them to meet me at the home where our other sister was. When I got there they were waiting for me outside.

“What’s up?” Porsche asked. 

“Yeah, why are we meeting at a group home Paris?” Patrice asked.

“I wanted you all to be here because daddy had another secret he never told. We’ve got an eight year old sister and her mom just died in a fire,” I said.

They both yelled together, “What!”

“This is so fucked up,” Porsche mumbled.

“Let’s go.” I told them. 

When we walked into the building we saw a whole bunch of kids running around. An older lady with salt and pepper hair met me. She reminded me of my grandmother. “Hi I’m here to see…” Before I could get the words out she said, “I know who you are.  She’s up in her room.  You all must be her sisters. You all look just alike.  I’m Ms. Stokes by the way.”

“Hi, I’m Paris, the older sister. This is Porsche and Patrice,” I said.

They all said their hellos. We were led up the stairs and before she put her hand on the knob I touched her arm. “Um Ms. Stokes, we don’t even know her name,” I said.

She smiled at us and said, “Paige.” 

I just shook my head because all of my Dad’s children were name after him with a P.  She opened the door and we saw the prettiest little girl sitting on the bed holding her doll tight.  Her hair was just like ours curly and long, falling down her back. She had the same complexion as Porsche, dark brown. When she lifted her head up to look at us she gasped.

She looked at Porsche for the longest time and I think she saw herself in Porsche. We all had the same hazel eyes, but she and Porsche favored each other the most. You would think that Porsche was her child. I walked closer to her and said, “Hi Paige. I’m you’re…”

“I know who you are. You’re Paris. That’s Porsche and that’s Patrice,” she said pointing.  I smiled at her and she reached inside her pocket and took out a picture of us. “My mom told me that I had older sisters and she gave me this picture,” she said.

It was a picture of us when we were younger.  My dad must have given it to her mother or maybe her mother took the picture. We don’t know. I looked back at Porsche and Patrice who were still standing there. I think they were in shock that we actually had a little sister.

“Am I going to live with you now?” Paige asked. 

“Yes you are,” I said, “Would you like to live with us Paige?” 

She nodded her head yes. A tear dropped from my eyes and she wiped it from my face.  I smiled at her and she hugged me.  Ah, she was just the sweetest little thing.

She got up off the bed and hugged Patrice first, and then she hugged Porsche.  Porsche broke down crying. I really didn’t know what to make of it, but I just let her have her moment.  Ms. Jones came back and handed us some things that were not damaged in the fire. I looked at the picture and I was shocked to see that Paige’s mother was my mother’s best friend.

How could Scarlet do this to my mother?  I always wondered why Scarlet stopped coming around to visit us at the house. Gosh, my poor Momma. Her own best friend since she was a little girl slept with her man. Damn. This day can’t get any worse. I grabbed Paige’s hand and we all proceeded out the door with an extra family member.

Chapter 7~Porsche

You know that saying you can run, but you can’t hide?  All my life I’ve been running from my past and it has finally caught up with me. I thought I was never going to have to face the decisions I made when I was fourteen.  I was too young to even understand back then, but my parents made me give her up.

No one knows that Paige is my daughter but my Mom, Dad, my mom’s best friend Scarlet who agreed to keep her and me.  My dad put his name on the birth certificate so she could always find us when she was ready. Never in a million years would I have thought that she would come sooner than what we all predicted. I could still remember the day when I went to my mom with the news that I was pregnant…

Cameron Reynolds stayed next door to us ever since I was a little girl. His mom was a crackhead so he stayed with his grandmother, Ms. Essie. She was the sweetest lady and she would sometimes keep us for my mom when she went looking for my father. I always had a crush on Cameron but I also hated him too. 

We had that type of Love and Basketball kind of love. We were the best of friends and we were very protective about each other.  I always sent messages when girls liked him and he always sent messages when boys liked me. We never really paid them any mind because we were so involved trying to outdo each other in sports and other things.

One day I discovered that a woman could actually fall in love at such a young age when I saw Cameron kissing Shanika right after school and I got jealous instantly.  Shanika is what we called the more developed girl in school.  She had the breasts, the big butt, the hips, and everything I wanted.  All I had was my pretty looks with a flat behind and a flat chest.  But I did have a cute shape because all the boys were after me too.

To teach Cameron a lesson, I grabbed Damien Ford who was walking by, and pulled him into a lip lock as well. We kissed for a good five minutes until I felt eyes on me. When I looked over I saw Cameron glaring at me. I pushed Damien away and began to walk off fast towards our house.  

Cameron caught up with me and yanked me around and asked, “Why you kissing all on Damien?” 

I yanked away from him and said, “Leave me alone Cameron. Why don’t you go back to kissing Shanika?”

He smiled at me and said, “You’re jealous.”

“I am not jealous you punk,” I said, pushing him hard and kept on walking. 

“You are too jealous,” he said.  I rolled my eyes at him as I began to climb the stairs to our apartment. He stopped at his door and looked over at me fumbling with my keys.

“Look can we talk in my house for a minute,” he said.  I looked over at him with blazing eyes and finally thought about how much I wanted to punch him.

“Sure,” I said.  I stepped into his house knowing that his grandmother was gone to bible study at the church.  We went inside his room and he closed the door.

“I’m sorry you saw me kissing Shanika,” he said.

I bunched my shoulders at him and said, “It’s no big deal.  I’m not your girl.”

He sat next to me and put his arms around my shoulders and said, “It is a big deal Porsche.  I don’t want you mad at me.”

“I’m not,” I said as I moved his arm from around me.

I finally looked over at him and we stared into each other’s eyes for a second until we found each other into a lip lock ourselves.  I started to lean back into the bed and Cameron found himself on top of me. I could feel his hard penis pressing against my sweet potato pie and my eyes became wide. He started to grind into me and I immediately opened my legs so I could get a better feel.

His hands began to roam all over my body and I began to moan a little bit. “Did I ever tell you how beautiful you are Porsche?” he asked. 

“No,” I said breathless.

“Well you are and I want to make you my girl,” he said, “I can’t stand to see another guy with you. Can you be my girl?”  I smiled up at him.

“I thought you would never ask,” I said, pulling his mouth back over to mine.

The next thing I knew we were both naked. Back then we really didn’t know about protecting ourselves so we just went with the flow. “Is this your first time?” he asked. 

“Yeah, what about you?” I said.

“Yeah,” he said.

“That’s a good thing, isn’t it Cameron?” I asked kind of nervous.

“Yeah, it is. That means I am going to love you forever Porsche. You are mine now and I am yours forever,” he said.

“Forever Cameron,” I said. He began to kiss all over my body and I was in heaven.

I still think to this very day that Cameron was the best lover I had ever had and I think that maybe it’s because he was my first. When he stuck his penis inside of me I gasped.  “You alright baby?” he asked. 

“It hurts,” I said with tears in my eyes, “Please go slow Cameron.”

“I will baby.  I don’t want to hurt you,” he said as he began to move slow and easy and after a while he got better but as soon as I was getting into it he came.  He made this funny looking face and collapsed on me.  “Damn baby. That shit was good,” he said.  I looked at him with disbelief and said, “That’s all?  I thought we supposed to be going at it for hours. That’s what Paris and Marcus do.

“This is just our first time. Maybe the second time will be better,” he said. 

After that Cameron and I couldn’t keep our hands off of each other. We had sex just about every day and everybody at school knew we were a hot item. I was so proud to have Cameron as my man until I found out I had missed a period. I didn’t know what was going on so I went to my mother.

“Mommy, I haven’t seen my period this month,” I stated bluntly. I didn’t know what it meant, so I was just telling her I didn’t have one.

She stared at me for a moment and then said, “What the hell you mean you didn’t see your period?”

“I don’t know,” I said and shook my shoulders up.

“It hasn’t come. I don’t remember reading about my period not coming on, I thought it was supposed to come every month,” I said.

“Oh my God, this is not happening,” she said.  My mom had tears in her eyes.

“Did I miss something Mommy?” I said.

“You damn right you missed something Porsche, your damn period!  Do you know what that means?  You are only thirteen Porsche,” she said.  I was so confused. I didn’t know what she was talking about.

“Mommy what did I do?” I asked. She didn’t say anything. 

“Go put on some clothes,” she said. I just looked at her funny until she yelled, “Now Porsche!”

I ran to the back room and put on some clothes. We got in the car and headed towards Walgreen’s. My mom told me to stay in the car and I was a little afraid because I didn’t know what was going on. When she came back she had something in her hands. I didn’t know what it was and I didn’t dare to ask.

She then drove to her best friend, Scarlet’s house, and told me to get out. I followed behind her with baby steps. Once we got inside she finally took out what she had in her hands - a pregnancy test. I immediately started to cry.

“Momma I’m not pregnant,” I said through tears, “I didn’t do anything to get pregnant.”

“You missed a period Porsche.  That’s a sign of being pregnant,” she said.  My eyes got wide and I burst into tears.

“But...but…” I couldn’t even say what I needed to say.

“Just pee on this stick here and we will found out if you are,” she said.

“But I don’t want to Momma,” I said.

“Porsche, just pee on the damn stick,” she yelled. 

I took it from her and I peed on the stick right in from of my mother.  I handed it back to her and when she looked at it I knew I was pregnant. My mom burst into tears and her best friend Scarlet came into the bathroom. She looked over at me and shook her head and held my mom.

“Mommy I am so sorry. I…I…” I stammered and didn’t know what else I could say.  I just sat on the toilet and cried by myself.

My mother finally looked over at me and asked, “Who have you been fucking Porsche?”

“Cameron,” I said softly.

My mother shook her head and said, “This is my entire fault Scarlet.  Instead of me paying attention to their father and his trifling ways I was neglecting to see about my own children.  What are we going to do about a baby Scarlet?  She is only thirteen.”

“We’ll figure something out girl,” Scarlet said.

“Mommy I’m so sorry. I didn’t know,” I said.

“I know you didn’t,” she said and finally came over to hug me.

“We are going to fix this Porsche,” Mom said.  I just nodded my head yes. 

“You can’t tell anyone that you are pregnant. It’s our little secret,” said Mom. I nodded my head yes again. After that night my mom and I had a very strong bond. I never said anything to Cameron about me being pregnant and he knew something was wrong. 

We went to having sex every day to not having sex at all. After a while we just broke up.  It hurt my heart but I had other things on my mind. After my fourth month of pregnancy my Mom withdrew me from school and sent me to live with her cousin until I was due. My sisters didn’t understand why I was leaving but all my mother said was that I was getting out of control and she needed sometime away from me. 

My mother and I talked everyday on the phone and I missed home terribly.  A day after my fourteenth birthday on August 5, Paige Cameron Hilton was born. I spent two days with her until Scarlet took her. Scarlet couldn’t have any kids of her own, so my mom said it was a blessing to give her to Scarlet. I cried for almost a week.