Whale Talk (12 page)

“I’m afraid so,” he says. “Evansville, Illinois. I was
hoping for something in one of these.” He stands and flexes, his fists nearly touching at his belt buckle, imitating a gorilla.

Tay-Roy’s eyes widen. “A crab,” he says. “Jeez, you guys.”

“I’ll sign a waiver,” Mott tells him.

“I’ll draft it right here,” Dan says. “If discovered, you can disavow any knowledge. An innocent victim of our lasciviousness.”

“That’s
it!
” Icko hits the brakes. The aisle is too narrow, but he opens the doors, and Dan racks off ten push-ups in the snow.

“Well worth it,” Dan says, “if Tay-Roy yields to our pleas.”

Tay-Roy smiles and sighs. “Okay, but if this comes back to bite me, you guys are going to pay.” He turns to the others. “Simon, what do you think, you want in on this? Jackie?”

Simon’s head shakes in what is almost a vibration. “Naw, I’d probably get confused and send a picture of Mott.”

Mott grimaces. “Jesus, a fat kid pretending to be an amputee. Dare to dream.”

“You’re the new Fabio,” I tell Tay-Roy later when everyone else appears to sleep. “Roll with it.”

It’s eleven-thirty when the bus pulls up in front of the school. The parking lot is three-quarters filled with cars of kids attending the aftergame dance, and I decide to check out the action, or, more specifically, to check out Carly. Coach Benson is among the chaperones and meets me at the door.

Benson says, “How’d you guys do?”

“Good,” I tell him.

“Everybody hit a personal best?” There is a hint of sarcasm, which I ignore.

“All the way around,” I say. “Chris Coughlin took almost fifteen seconds off his four hundred free. Three more meets and we invade Cutter’s Crystal Cathedral.”

Coach nods and smiles. “Pretty clever how you
pulled that off,” he says. “Who figured it out, you or your coach?”

“What do you mean?”

“Which one of you figured out everyone would improve this much?”

“Why can’t you accept that we gave ourselves a really hard job to do, and did it?”

“I’m going to have a talk with Coach Simet about this,” he says. “I have a lot of respect for the athletic program here at Cutter and the excellence of the athletes who succeed.”

“I know,” I say. “Me, too.”

“I wish I thought that were true, Jones.” He changes the subject. “So did you take the sprints?”

“Yup.”

“Well, I suppose that’s the up side to all this. You place high at State and that will put us up in the standings.”

“Yeah. That’s the problem with sprints, though. No matter how fast you are, some unknown guy hits a perfect dive and turn and takes you out.”

“You best concentrate on hitting all your dives and turns,” he says. “Things are pretty even around the conference this year, and we’re going to need those points. You don’t want to be putting the Athletic
Council through all this and then come up empty.”

I make a mental note to call Simet over the weekend to make sure he knows they’re on to us. Benson wields a lot of power around here.

“I’ll bust my butt, Coach. I really will. And you have to admit, that’s a pretty good trade-off for the rest of these guys earning their jackets. They may not be racking up the points, but I’d die of boredom if they weren’t there with me, so they’re pulling their weight.”

Carly motions to me from across the gym, and I tell Coach I’ll catch up with him later.

She says, “I was beginning to think you weren’t going to make it.”

“Icy roads and a zoo full of swimmers couldn’t have kept me away.”

She touches my hand, switching on the electricity that has been building between us, and we move onto the dance floor and get lost in the beat of a long slow Celine Dion song. Carly’s dark eyes and half smile tease me, and I think how lucky I am to have this uncomplicated relationship with somebody smart to talk to, and hot to the touch. We move closer, eyes closed, feet barely moving, swaying more than dancing. This girl gives me a hummingbird’s heart palpitations. I feel her entire body against me, her forehead touching the crook of my neck, the pressure of her hips.

A commotion by the entrance plummets me back to earth, and we look over to see Kristen Sweetwater jerking her wrist out of Mike Barbour’s grip, yelling, “Leave me alone, you asshole!” Kristen is the head varsity cheerleader and one of Carly’s good friends.

Carly drops my hand, and I follow her toward them. She says, “I told her to stay away from him.”

Barbour glances at the staring crowd and releases Kristen. “Come on, goddamn it, let’s talk about it.”

“You bastard, Mike Barbour! Look at my arm! Get away from me!” That is
not
language you hear out of Kristen Sweetwater.

Coach Benson hustles toward them, but Barbour sees him and storms out.

Kristen drops to her butt on the bleachers, face in her hands, sobbing. Carly sits beside her and puts an arm around her shoulders, waving Benson away and firing threatening looks at anyone who approaches. “What happened?”

Kristen doesn’t answer, just shakes her head and cries harder.

“Kristen, what
happened
? Did he hurt you?”

She pulls the loose sleeve of her blouse up to her shoulder. Her entire arm is red, beginning to darken.

“That son of a bitch,” Carly says.

“He said he had some beer stashed out by the river,” she said. “He and some friends were supposed to have a little party out there.”

“Only you got out there and no one else was there. Shit, Kristen, what’s the matter with you? I told you what Mike Barbour is like.”

Kristen looks up, wiping her eyes. I haven’t said anything because I can’t take my eyes off her arm. “Yeah, well,” she says, “that’s what got me in trouble. When I saw we were alone, I told him you said he was like that, and he started getting
mad
. He said if I was going to listen to some bitch who’s fu—going out with a ni—who’s going out with T. J., he didn’t want anything to do with me.”

Carly massages Kristen’s neck. “That would have been a good time to tell him to take you home.”

Kristen’s head drops. “I know.”

“But you didn’t say that, did you?”

Kristen is defeated. “No. I told him I didn’t necessarily believe it, just that you’d said it. Then he said I could make it up to him by having sex. I thought he was kidding—I mean, I’ve only been out with him a couple of times—but all of a sudden he was unbuttoning my coat, and I was trying to get out and accidentally scratched his face. God, he went crazy. He kept telling
me to strip, and I’d say no and he’d punch my arm.” She starts crying again, hard. “And he had me trapped, and he said, ‘Strip’ again, and I said no and he punched my arm again, then he just kept saying it faster and faster and hitting me before I could answer.” Her voice trails away into sobs.

I am pulling my coat on.

Carly says, “Wait, T. J.”

Kristen is gasping for breath. “I finally jerked loose and started running. He started his pickup and came after me, but Don Abemathy and Marcy Caldwell saw me and stopped. I had them bring me back here, but Mike followed us.”

She catches her breath. “God, I am so
stupid!
He stopped me after I got out of their car and said he was sorry, that he’s really been under a lot of pressure and would I at least get back in the pickup with him and talk about it.”

Carly’s eyes harden. “And you did it. Jesus, Kristen.”

“I know, but he sounded really sorry. And he was. When I first got in, he looked at my arm and apologized again and said he’d never lay another hand on me, that he’d do anything not to have done that. He sounded like he was going to cry and so I was kind of holding him
and all of a sudden he was feeling me up again. I jumped out, and that’s when he followed me in.”

I tap Carly’s shoulder. “Okay, I waited. Now I’m going to find Barbour.”

“T. J., don’t do something stupid.”

“I won’t. I’m going to kick his ass,” I say and head for the door.

“T. J.!”

“You guys wait here for me. I’ll be right back.” I am through the exit, ignoring the sophomore money taker reminding me I need a chaperone’s permission to leave if I want back in.

I don’t see Barbour’s pickup in the lot, which is packed now, and I jog up one aisle and down the next, working myself up. If I find him, that pickup is scrap metal. “Barbour! Come out, big man! Let’s see how tough you are! Here’s your chance, tough guy! You been saying ‘someday’! Well, it’s here! Barbour!”

Headlights flash on as I pass cars—I’ll probably have to issue a class-action apology for all the near misses I caused—and then I hear an engine roar and look up to see Barbour fishtailing out the entrance. If somebody clocked me, I might have the new school record for the hundred meters between me and my car.

I hit the parking-lot exit at top speed for a Chevy
Corvair in second gear, which barely approaches the speed limit, and gun it down the street, only slowing enough at intersections to look for him. I will run that son of a bitch off the road if necessary; we are going to deal before I go to sleep tonight.

The speeding/failure-to-stop citation is going to cost me $273 even though I pass the Breathalyzer. The cop says if I get another one tonight he will see that I spend the rest of it in jail, because I am so pissed I can’t keep my mouth shut while he’s writing it out. “I suggest you go home and cool off,” he tells me.

“That asshole punches out a girl, and
I’m
the one going to jail.”

“Tell her to report it,” he says. “If it happened like you say, it’s assault.”

“It happened like I say.”

“Well, if there are bruises, she’s got a case.”

“She won’t report it.”

“Hey, buddy. If she won’t report it, as far as the law’s concerned, it didn’t happen.”

I take the ticket and thank him through clenched teeth.

“Look, Mr. Jones,” he says, reading my driver’s license as he hands it back. “Go home. The guy who throws the first punch never gets the foul. It’s the guy
the ref sees retaliate. You’re close enough to eighteen to go straight to the slammer.”

As I pull back onto the street, he follows me: my designated escort. I can forget evasive action; my address is on the ticket. Fine. Barbour will live an extra day. This shit
will
get cleaned up.

I pull over and, when the cop stops behind me, get out to ask if I can go back to the dance to hook up with Kristen and Carly. He points straight ahead. “Home.”

It’s quarter to one when I find Mom in her study going over papers for a case she has to try Monday morning. I show her the ticket.

“Were you running from Carly’s dad?” My mom can be a smartass, too.

I tell her about Kristen’s shoulder; that I was going after Barbour.

“So what were you going to do if you found him?”

“You mean, what
am
I going to do.”

In the voice she reserves for hostile witnesses, she says, “No, I mean what
were
you going to do—before you let your temper get you a ticket equal to a semester’s tuition.”

“Mom, somebody’s got to teach that asshole he can’t be doing that. He gets some bullshit in his head and takes it out on some girl maybe half his size? What kind of ignorant shit is that?”

“Just that,” she says. “Ignorant shit.”

“Yeah, well, he needs a lesson.”

“And you’re going to teach it?”

“Damn right. If I’d have found him tonight it would be in the record books.”

“If you had found him tonight, there’s a good chance your dad would be down at the county jail right now, bailing you out. Jail, T. J., not juvy; because you’re that close to eighteen, just like the officer told you. And then who would pay your brand-new giant-sized car insurance premium?”

“You think the law wouldn’t give me a flyer on this one? He hit a girl so hard her shoulder is going to be
black
. What about that? Isn’t that evidence?”

She pushes her chair back from the desk, closes the folder, and sighs, which means I’m about to get hit with lawyer shit. “Yes, T. J., it is evidence. It’s evidence against Mike Barbour for an assault he’ll never be charged with, because the person he hit will say it was accidental after he apologizes and swears never to do it again, which”—and she glances at her watch—“he probably has already done, and she won’t go through with it because it will prove to her, in some perverse way, that she isn’t good enough to keep him.” She leans forward to make her point. “It won’t even come up in
your
assault trial.”

“So I just let it happen?”

“No. Kristen Sweetwater lets it happen.”

“What the hell is she supposed to do? She weighs maybe a hundred-ten pounds.”

“What would Carly do?”

“She’d kick his ass.”

“No, she’d stay away from him.”

I slam my fist into my open hand so hard it almost goes numb. “Something’s got to be done, and if no one else will do it, I will.” I start to walk out of the den, but Mom’s firm hand grips my shoulder and guides me back to the chair. She says, “Sit.”

I sit.

“As long as we’re going down this road, let’s go all the way. What is it you think you’re going to teach Mike Barbour by beating him up?”

“To pick on somebody his own size.”

“It seems to me that if you beat him up you’ll be teaching him
not
to pick on somebody his own size.”

“You know what I mean.”

“I know what you think you mean.”

“Are you going to do this lawyer thing with me?”

“This
lawyer thing
is common sense. How do you think Mike Barbour got like he is? Or Rich Marshall for that matter?” It sounds like Mom has been talking to Dad.

“I don’t care how they got that way. I’m just tired of them thinking they’re big men because they can beat up on girls and little kids.”

“Do you really believe they think they’re big men because they do that?”

“Why else would they do it?”

She places a hand on my knee. “You’re not going to like this, but for the same reason you break things in your room sometimes, or punch your hand so hard it sounds like you broke your fingers. Because when rage takes you over, you do what the rage tells you.”

“Hey, I might break stuff, but I sure don’t hit women and kids.”

“And don’t think I’m not grateful,” she says, only half kidding. I know she’s right about my rage, but I’m
not
giving that asshole Barbour even an inch.

“What do you think Mike Barbour does when he goes home after doing something like he did tonight? Do you really think he goes into the bathroom and looks in the mirror and flexes his biceps and says, ‘Well, I really kicked
her
ass’?”

“I don’t know what he does.”

“So I’ll tell you. He feels out of control. He promises himself he won’t do it again, worries what will happen to him. He worries somebody will find out and humiliate
him. He wishes he knew why he doesn’t stop himself, why he didn’t see it coming. None of that lasts long, because he has to find some way to justify it, so he starts telling himself what a bitch Kristen is, that it’s her job to keep him from getting mad. And I’ll tell you what, I don’t even know Kristen Sweetwater, but I’ll bet you the price of that ticket that she was brought up by a father who believes exactly what Mike Barbour believes.”