Rainbows End (10 page)

“Indeed.” “And I made an assignment.”

Gu looked young, but when he cocked his head and eyed Ms. Chumlig, there was such power in his gaze.
Jeez, if only I could look like that when Chumlig has me on the hot seat
. The young-old man was silent for a second, and then he said calmly. “I have written a short piece, but as I said it has none of — ” his gaze swept the class, nailing Juan for an instant” — the pictures and sound that seem expected.”

Ms. Chumlig gestured him forward. “Your words will do splendidly today. Please. Come down.”

After a second, Gu stood and came down the steps. He moved fast, with kind of a spastic lurch. Gossipy notes flew back and forth. For the moment, the class’s attention was focused like Ms. Chumlig always wanted.

Chumlig stepped out of his way, and Robert Gu turned to face the class. Of course, he couldn’t call a up word display. But he didn’t look at his view-page either. He just looked at the class and said, “A poem. Three hundred words. I tell you about the land of North County as it really is, here and beyond.” His arm twitched outward, toward the open windows.

Then he just… talked. No special effects, no words scrolling through the air. And it couldn’t really be a poem since his voice didn’t get all singsong. Robert Gu just talked about the lawn that circled the school, the tiny mowers that circled and circled across it. The smell of the grass, and how it squeezed down moist in the morning. How the slope of the hills took running feet to the creek brush that edged the property. It was what you saw here every day — at least when you weren’t using overlays to see somewhere else.

And then Juan wasn’t really aware of the words anymore. He was
seeing;
he was there. His mind floated above the little valley, scooted up the creek bed, had almost reached the foot of Pyramid Hill… when suddenly Robert Gu stopped talking, and Juan was dumped back into the reality of his place at the rear end of Ms. Chumlig’s composition class. He sat for a few seconds, dazed. Words. That’s all they were. But what they did was more than visuals. It was more than haptics. There had even been the smell of the dry reeds along the creek bed.

For a moment no one said anything. Ms. Chumlig looked glassy-eyed. Either she was very impressed or she was surfing.

But then a classic Pompous Bird flew up from the old farts’ side of the room. It swooped across the room to drop a huge load of wet birdshit on Robert Gu. Fred and Jer burst out laughing, and after a moment the whole class responded.

Of course, Robert Gu couldn’t see the special effects. For a second he looked puzzled, and then he glared at the Radners.

“Class!” Ms. Chumlig sounded truly pissed. The laughter choked off and everyone applauded politely. Chumlig held them to it for a moment, then lowered her own hands. Juan could see she was scanning them all. Normally she ignored graffiti. This time she was searching for someone to crucify. Her gaze ended up in the old farts’ section, and she looked a little surprised.

“Very well. Thank you, Robert. That is all we have time for today. Class, your next assignment is to collaborate and improve on what you have already done. It’s up to you to find local partners for this step. Send me the teamings and your game plan before we meet next time.” The Ignominious Details would be in the mail by the time they got home.

Then the class bell — triggered by Chumlig, in fact — rang out. By the time Juan got himself out of his chair, he was in the tail end of the mad rush for the door. It didn’t matter. He was a little dazed by the strange form of
virtual
virtual reality that Robert Gu had created.

Behind him he could see that Gu had finally figured out the class was over. He would be outside with the rest of them in a few seconds.
My chance to enlist him for the Lizard
. And maybe something else. He thought on the old man’s magic words. Maybe, maybe, they could collaborate. Everybody had laughed at Robert Gu. But before the Pompous Bird had been launched, before they had laughed, Juan Orozco had felt the awed silence.
And he did that with words alone
…

When Robert walked to the front of the class, he was more irritated than nervous. He had wowed students for thirty years. He could wow them with the bit of verse he had composed for today. He turned, and looked out the class. “A poem,” he said. “Three hundred words. I tell you about the land of North County as it really is, here and beyond.” The poem was a pastoral cliche, composed last night and based on his memories of San Diego and what he saw on the drive to Fairmont. But for a few moments, his words held them, just as in the old days.

When he was done there was a moment of absolute silence. What impressionable children. He looked over at the Adult Ed people, saw the jagged, hostile smile on Winston Blount’s face.
Envious as ever, eh, Winnie
?

Then a pair of oafs near the front started laughing. That precipitated scattered giggles. “Class!” Chumlig stepped forward and everyone applauded, even Blount.

Chumlig said a few more words. Then the class bell rang and the students were all rushing for the door. He started after them.

 

“Ah, Robert,” said Ms. Chumlig. “Please stay a moment. That bell ‘did not toll for you.’” She smiled, no doubt pleased by her command of literary allusion. “Your poem was so beautiful. I want to apologize to you, for the class. They had no right to put the — ” She gestured at the air above his head. “What?”

“Never mind. This is not a truly talented class, I fear.” She look at him quizzically. “It’s hard to believe you’re seventy-five years old; modern medicine is working miracles. I’ve had a number of senior students. I understand your problems.”

“Ah, you do.”

“Anything you do in this class will be a favor for the others here. I hope you’ll stay, help them. Rework your poem with some student’s visuals. They can learn from you — and you can learn the skills that will make the world a more comfortable place for you.”

Robert gave her a little smile. There would always be cretins like Louise Chumlig. Fortunately, she found something else to focus on: “
Oh
! Look at the time! I’ve got to start Remote Studies. Please excuse me.” Chumlig turned and walked to the center of the classroom. She jabbed a hand toward the top row of seats. “Welcome, class. Sandi, stop playing with the unicorns!”

Robert stared at the empty room, and the woman talking to herself. So much technology…

Outside, the students had dispersed. Robert was left to ponder his reen-counter with “academia.” It could have been worse. His little poem had been more than good enough for these people. Even Winnie Blount had applauded. To impress someone even when he hates you — that was always a kind of triumph.

“Mr. Gu?” The voice was tentative. Robert gave a start. It was the Orozco kid, lurking by the classroom door.

 

“Hello,” he said, and gave the boy a generous smile.

 

Maybe too generous. Orozco came out of the shadows and walked along with him. “I — I thought your poem was wonderful.”

 

“You’re too kind.”

The boy waved at the sunlit lawn. “It made me feel like I was actually out here, running in the sunlight. And all without haptics or contacts or my wearable.” His gaze came up to Robert’s face and then flickered away. It was a look of awe that might have really meant something if the speaker had been anyone worthwhile. “I’ll bet you’re as good as any of the top game advertisers.”

“I’ll bet.”

The boy dithered for an inarticulate moment. “I notice you’re not wearing. I could help you with that. Maybe, maybe we could team up. You know, you could help me with the words.” Another glance at Robert, and then the rest of the kid’s speech came out in a rush. “We could help each other, and then there’s another deal I can get you in on. It could be a lot of money. Your friend Mr. Blount has already come on board.”

They walked in silence for a dozen paces.
“So, Professor Gu, what do you think?”
Robert gave Juan a kindly smile, and just as the kid brightened, he said, “Well, young man, I think it will

be a cold day in hell before I team with an old fool like Winston Blount — or a young fool such as yourself.”

 

Zing. The boy stumbled back almost as if Robert had punched him in the face. Robert walked on, smiling. It was a small thing, but like the poem, it was a start.
The Ezra Pound Incident

There was a dark side to Robert’s morning insights. Sometimes he would wake not to a grand solution but to the horrid realization that some problem was real, immediate, and apparently unsolvable. This wasn’t worrywart obsessiveness, it was a form of defensive creativity. Sometimes the threat was a total surprise; more often it was a known inconvenience, now recognized as deadly serious. The panic attacks normally led to real solutions, as when he had withdrawn his earliest long poem from a small press, hiding its naive shallowness from public view.

And very rarely, the new problem was truly unsolvable and he could but flail and rail against the impending disaster.

Last night, coming away from his presentation at Fairmont High, he’d been feeling pretty good. The groundlings had been impressed, and so had the likes of Winston Blount — who was a more sophisticated kind of fool.
Things are getting better. I’m coming back
. Robert had drifted through dinner, pretty much ignoring Miri’s pestering about all the things she could help him with. Bob was still absent. Robert had halfheartedly badgered Alice with questions about Lena’s last days. Had Lena asked for him at the end? Who had come to her funeral? Alice was more patient than usual but still not a great source of information.

Those were the questions he’d gone to sleep with.

He woke with a plan for finding answers. When Bob returned, they would have a heart-to-heart talk about Lena. Bob would know some of the answers. And for the rest… in Search and Analysis, Chumlig had been talking about the Friends of Privacy. There were methods of seeing through their lies. Robert was getting better and better at S&A. One way or another, he would recover his lost times with Lena.

That was the good news. The bad news floated up as he lay there drowsing through his scheme for turning technology into a searchlight on Lena — — -The bad news was an absolute, gut certainty that replaced the vague uneasiness of earlier days.
Yesterday, my poetry impressed the groundlings
. That was no reason for joy, and he’d been a fool to be warmed by it for even an instant. Any blush of pleasure should have vanished when little Juan Whosits had announced that Robert was as brilliant as an advertising copywriter.
Lord
!

But Winston Blount had applauded Robert’s little effort. Winston Blount was certainly competent to judge such verse. And here Robert’s morning insight came up with the memory of Winnie applauding, the measured beat of Blount’s hands, the smile on his face. That had
not
been the look of an enemy bested and awed. Never in the old days would Robert have confused it for that. No, Winnie had been
mocking
him. Winston Blount was telling him what he should have known all along. His out-doorsy poem was shit, good only for an audience accustomed to eating shit. Robert lay still for a long moment, a groan trapped in his throat, remembering the banal words of his little poem.

That
was the genius insight of this dark morning, the conclusion he had evaded every day since he was brought back from the dead:
I’ve lost the music in the words
.

Every day he was awash with ideas for new poetry, but not the smallest piece of concrete verse. He had told himself that his genius was coming back with his other faculties, that it was coming back slowly, in his little poems. All that was a mirage. And now he knew it for a mirage. He was dead inside, his gifts turned into vaporous nothingness and random mechanical curiosity.

You can’t know that
! He rolled out of bed and went into the bathroom. The air was cool and still. He stared out the half-open bathroom window at the little gardens and twisted conifers, the empty street. Bob and Alice had given him an upstairs room. It had been fun to be able to run up and down stairs again.

In truth nothing had changed about his problems. He had no new evidence that he was permanently maimed. It was just that suddenly — with the full authority of a Morning Insight — he was certain of it.
But hell. For once this could be just panic without substance
! Maybe obsessing on Lena’s death was spilling over, making him see death in all directions.

Yes. No problem. There was no problem.

He spent the morning in a panicked rage, trying to prove to himself that he could still write. But the only paper was the foolscap, and when he wrote on it, his scrawling penmanship was re-formed into neat, fontified lines. That had been an irritation in days past, but never enough to force him to dig up real paper. Today, now… he could see that his soul was sucked out of the words before he could make them sing! It was the ultimate victory of automation over creative thought. Everything was beyond the direct touch of his hand. That was what was keeping him from finally connecting with his talents! And in the entire house there were no real paper-and-ink books.

Aha
. He rushed to the basement, pulled down one of the moldering cartons that Bob had brought from Palo Alto. Inside, there were real books. When he was a kid, he had practically camped out on the living-room sofa the whole summer. They had no television, but every day he’d bring home a new pile of books from the library. Those summers, lying on the sofa, he had read his way through frivolous trash and deep wisdom — and learned more about truth than in an entire school year. Maybe that was where he had learned to make words sing.

These books were mostly junk. There were school catalogs from before Stanford went all online. There were handouts that his TAs had painfully Xeroxed for the students.

But, yes, there were a few books of poetry. Pitifully few, and read only by silverfish these last ten years. Robert stood up and stared at the boxes farther back in the basement dimness. Surely there were more books there, even if selected by brute chance, whatever was left after Bob auctioned off the Palo Alto place. He looked down at the book in his hand. Kipling. Damned jingoistic elevator music.
But it’s a start
. Unlike the libraries that floated in cyberspace, this was something he could hold in his hands. He sat down on the boxes and began to read, all the while pushing his mind ahead of the words, trying to remember — trying to
create
— what should rightly be the rest of the poem.