Never A Choice (The Choices Trilogy (Book 1)) (4 page)

“I have to get to work my shift starts soon!” I rush to announce as if this revelation will save me from this excruciating encounter. It’s not a lie but I could have stayed a little longer if I wanted, I don’t. I step away and feel the sudden loss of heat. I have to lean awkwardly around an immovable Daniel Stone to place my coffee cup down. Only when I am safely on the other side do I release the breath I had been holding. I risk a look back into the room through the small window in the door. There are several groups of people now but undoubtedly most eyes are fixed on the mountain of a man next the Mr Wilson, his eyes are however, undoubtedly fixed on me.

“So?” Sofia leaves a long dramatic pause. “How was your first day? Did you make any friends? Did the other children play nice? She is carrying a bottle of white wine and two glasses from downstairs and flops into the armchair opposite me. I am curled up in a ball wrapped head to toe in blankee.

“Pour first.” I instruct pointing at the empty glasses.

“It can’t have been that bad, you didn’t even have any lectures did you?” She passes me a very full glass.

“Urghhh.” I take a large gulp, this is not going to touch the sides. “I think I’ve been rumbled.”

Sofia laughs then stops. “You’re serious? How?”

“Some guy at the gathering, a ‘Friend of the University’ they’ve roped into to giving some free lectures, flat out told me I was lying in front of my course leader.”

“What? Oh my God Bets what did you do? What did Mr what’s his name say?”

“Mr Wilson, well he didn’t say anything, he didn’t actually hear, this guy whispered it in my ear.” I get a shiver as I say this, like I can feel his breath skim my skin. I can feel my face heat and I quickly down the rest of my glass.

“Oh my . . . Miss Thorne I do believe your blushing.” She giggles.

“I know! What is that about? Some random hot guy whispers in my ear and I light up like a red light district. They all swear like sailors in the kitchen and the topics they share, well it’s no holds barred most of the time and not a hint of colour!” I am just as shocked.

“Hot guy ?” She hums with excitement.

“Oh yes.” I swallow. “Did I not mention that he was off the charts hot as hell? And he knows, I don’t know what he knows but he knows I’m lying.” I’m frowning now and waving to get more wine. Sofia leans forward and tops up my glass. I take a smaller sip this time. “Oh God, I can’t lose this place Sofs.” I drop my head in my one free hand.

“Random guy, you say, so he is not on the staff?” She muses.

“No.” I like where she’s going with her thinking.

“And you didn’t confirm he was right?”

“No.”

“and your Mr what’s his name didn’t hear?” Her lips begin to curl in a reassuring way.

“Mr Wilson and no.” I mirror her pleasing smile.

“So then there is nothing actually to worry about, nothing material has changed here so don’t worry. Nothing will come of this I promise, other than me laughing at you for actually blushing over some ‘random hot guy.’” She moves to sit next to me and nudges my arm not quite spilling my drink. I think about what she’s said.

“You are right, he’s not staff and not a student, I probably won’t even see him again.” I take a satisfying sip to drain my glass,

I WISH I had a bath. I stand under the less than powerful staff shower at the rear of the kitchens and attempt to dodge the range of temperatures that fluctuate from skin flaying hot to freeze your nipples clean off cold. In fact I think I would sell my soul for the luxury of a roll top bath with deep hot water and endless silken bubbles; throw in some candles and I wouldn’t even put up a fight. I squeal as I’m blasted with a final spurt of ice water as I turn the tap off and step on to the slatted wooden tray, which in the winter prevents my feet from freezing directly on to the concrete floor. I wrap myself in my large fluffy towel, slowly open and peep around the door. The corridor is empty and I’m pretty sure that I am early enough to brave the mad dash up stairs without the other employees catching a flash of flesh. This fact alone is the reason I am always awake at five in the morning. A brutal and mortifying lesson learned the hard way and even though I cringe at the recollection I am ever thankful no phone camera was to hand at the time.

I have lived here for two years. My sister’s disappearance kind of left me homeless and my temporary month long stay at Sofia’s turned into two years until I was eighteen. Sofia’s family took me in. They have a large town house in a fabulous part of London and although clearly have money, they are really down to earth and so friendly and welcoming. The house was always full. Full with friends and family, full of wonderful aromas and full of love. I dated Sofia’s twin brother Marco, for a short time, not my smartest move but he was funny, smart and persistent. He didn’t cover himself in glory when I found out he had been bragging about me to some friends, he was a little shocked when I didn’t take the opportunity to shame him and deny it all when I had the chance. I had my reasons and laughed it off, even gave him a high score when pushed for details. Sofia was not so kind and tore into him in private, she was the only one I ever told about John and completely understood why I was, the way I was but she was protective of me all the same. This in itself could have made my move into the family home awkward but I have a talent for turning fragile relationships into strong friendships. Next to Sofia, Marco is my best friend.

Marco works in the Knightsbridge restaurant with me while Sofia is studying a food and wine diploma at an exclusive private school in central London. She is happy to live at home forgoing the student experience for the utter luxury her five star home offers. She also chose not to work in the family restaurants opting instead to work at a private members club learning the hospitality and event side of catering. As the only girl she is spoiled and indulged and could have so easily become a proper princess. She can spend money like there is no tomorrow but she is generous too and she works really hard.

I knew I was welcome to stay as long as I needed but the house was full and sharing a bed with the human starfish meant that I never slept all that well. Even though Sofia’s father kept on about not leaving me to “wander the streets” I started to look for a room as soon as I turned eighteen. Realistically sleeping on the streets wasn’t going to happen, I could afford a room it just wouldn’t be pretty and it might be a little out toward the sticks. However, one Sunday I was wiping down at the end of my shift and getting ready to leave when Sofia’s father took me upstairs, he wanted to show me what his boys had been working on. The confusion on my face must have been a picture as he laughed and led the way. Above the restaurant were two small box rooms that were too inconvenient to use for extra storage for the restaurant so had been relegated to a dumping ground for dying furniture and dead kitchen equipment.

I stood on the threshold and was completely overwhelmed; I couldn’t take a step further when I saw what they had done for me. Sofia leapt from behind an armchair shouting surprise! That was the understatement of the year. I had no idea this was all happening above my head. The room had been cleared and painted a warm honey white. The threadbare patchy carpet had been removed and the wide wooden plank flooring had been stripped and polished. Two large chocolate and charcoal coloured rugs almost covered the entire floor but you could still see the rich polished wood around the edge.

In the far corner below the window a book lamp illuminated a small white desk with a high backed wooden chair tucked beneath it. In the centre of the room was a two seater sofa with a huge fluffy cream coloured throw which was hiding a rather hideous seventies style geometric pattern. Next to that a faded and battered leather armchair that I recognised from Marco’s bedroom. It was a much loved piece of furniture and very comfortable. The permanent indent in the seat cushion was a testament to that. Sofia had obviously been raiding my storage boxes and sixth form art portfolio case as the walls now held two of my abstract landscapes. She had had them mounted and framed. There was also a silver framed picture of my mum when she was my age on the coffee table and a cork notice board above the desk declaring, ‘Welcome to Your New Home ☺’ in the form of a colourful homemade poster.

Sofia came toward me and grabbed my hand, excited to show me all the improvements. The was a corner unit that acted like a kitchenette with a single ring hob, kettle and toaster. To be fair there was a much larger kitchen downstairs if I was ever feeling more adventurous than tea and toast. Behind that was a separate toilet and sink; and next to that, two smaller store cupboards had been knocked into one to provide a perfect sized bedroom. The queen sized futon bed dominated the tiny space and Sofia had hung white fairy lights all along the headboard. It looked magical. It was perfect, my new home was perfect. I was speechless and about to turn when I noticed beside the bed was a tiny framed picture. It is the follow on picture of the one I always keep in my purse. It is the photo of me and John, my soul mate and best friend since I was five years old. It was taken on my sixteenth birthday. It was my fault he never made it to seventeen. It was my fault he was murdered.

I couldn’t stop the tears that had been building since I stood on the threshold. I let out a sob and was quickly muffled silent by tight embraces from Sofia and her father. I had decided a long time ago that crying accomplished little other than huge puffy red eyes and a snotty nose. So I reigned in the breath stealing sobs I could feel bubbling under the surface and which I knew I was capable of in private and gave a light laugh to lift the mood. After all, I was genuinely over the moon with my new pad. I thanked them and thanked them again.The grande tour took no more than five minutes and after seeing how truly happy they had made me, Sofia and her father left for the evening. I was able to wallow in the solitude of my new home because although I am often lonely I am rarely alone. It was bliss.

I work a split shift on Mondays, so having confirmed my timetable amendments’ with a quick email to Mr Wilson I head down to the kitchen. I am capable of turning my hand to most jobs in and around the restaurant and Sofia’s eldest brother Anthony Jr, who runs this restaurant, is pretty flexible where I work. He prefers me front of house and I don’t flatter myself that I would ever be let loose cooking but I can prepare veg and wash up like a pro. Besides, I am happiest in the kitchen, the pressure can be intense and the language can be blue but I like the banter and buzz that comes from working in a predominately dominant male environment. The guys never make concessions for me being there and they certainly don’t censure their language or the topics up for discussion. Frankly what I didn’t learn in biology I more than made up for in that kitchen. They would happily enlighten me, giving me tips and tricks that would make a hardened professional blush but just made me laugh.

I prepped vegetables all morning, one of the specials today was zucchini fritters which meant mountains of shredded courgettes. It’s the only way to eat such a dull vegetable and the way Joe cooks them; they are both light, crisp and melt in the mouth. I had a taster as I finished work and headed upstairs to change. I planned to go to the library to make a start on my reading. I can’t afford to buy all the course books but reading them in the library is no hardship. As I put my jacket on I dig in the pocket and pull out a crumpled piece of paper with the contact details I took from the job board; the one with the very vague but intriguing information. I decide to give the number a call, it was worth that at least to establish some details. I sit on the arm of my armchair and punch the numbers. The call is answered,