Letters to Katie (2 page)
“Oh, Katherine. This is so
schee
.”
Katherine Yoder smiled at her best friend, Mary Beth Shetler. She’d spent hours working
on the baby quilt, making sure the tiny stitches were as perfect as possible for Mary
Beth’s new baby. “I’m glad you like it.”
“Of course I do.” Mary Beth touched the soft flannel quilt, running her fingers over
the pale yellow, blue, and peach blocks. Each block had a ragged edge, a new pattern
she hadn’t attempted before. The simple style was well suited for a baby, and Mary
Beth’s was due in a few weeks.
“I love it.” Mary Beth folded the quilt and placed it on her knees, her expanded belly
barely allowing the space. “
Danki
for such a beautiful gift. Although I don’t see how you have the time, working so
many hours at the restaurant.”
All I have is time
. She pushed the self-pity aside and managed a smile. She didn’t want to ruin the
moment between them with jealousy. Unlike Mary Beth Shetler, Katherine didn’t have
a husband—and soon a child—to take care of. Outside of working at Mary Yoder’s and
helping her
parents at home, her only other pursuits were her sewing and needlework. She was
always busy yet longed for something different. Something more.
Apparently God had other plans.
Mary Beth managed to rise from the chair in her tiny kitchen. Her husband, Chris,
had built the four-room home behind Mary Beth’s parents’ property. The dwelling resembled
a
dawdi haus
, and likely would be used as such once the rest of Mary Beth’s siblings—Johnny, Caleb,
Micah, and Eli—married and left home. But for now, the tidy, cozy home was enough.
And more than Katherine had.
Mary Beth placed the quilt on the table. “I’m glad you came over. Since I’ve gotten
so big, I haven’t gotten out much.” Her light blue dress draped over her bulging belly.
Katherine’s eyes widened. “Are you sure you’re not having twins?”
“Nee.”
Her friend laughed. “But I look like I am.” With a waddling gait she moved to the
cabinet. “Do you want anything to drink?”
Katherine shook her head. “I can’t stay too long. I wanted to make sure you got the
quilt before the
boppli
arrived. I have to work later today.”
“Maybe just a few minutes?” Mary Beth went back to the table and sat down. She reached
for Katherine’s hand. “It’s been so long since we talked.”
“We’ve both been busy.” She squeezed her friend’s hand. “And you’ll be even busier
in a few weeks.”
“Ya.”
A radiant glow appeared on Mary Beth’s cheeks. “But I don’t want us to drift apart.
You’re
mei
best friend.”
Katherine released her hand. “And I promise I’ll be the best
aenti
to your
boppli
.”
“The baby has plenty of
onkels
, that’s for sure.” Her smile dimmed a little.
Katherine frowned. “What’s wrong? It’s not the
boppli
, is it?”
“Nee.”
“Chris?”
“Chris is fine too. We’re happier than we’ve ever been.”
“Then what is it?”
Mary Beth sighed, but she didn’t reply.
“You know you can tell me anything. If something’s troubling you, I want to help.”
Her friend looked at Katherine. “It’s Johnny.”
Katherine’s heart twisted itself into a knot. She glanced away before steeling her
emotions. “What about Johnny?”
“Are you sure you want to talk about him?”
“I’ve accepted that there’s no future for us. What I felt for Johnny was a childhood
crush.”
A crush. The truth was, Katherine had loved Mary Beth’s twin brother, Johnny, for
as long as she could remember. For years she held out hope for a chance, however small,
however remote. She had clung to that dream as if she were drowning and it was her
only lifeline.
But not anymore.
She sat straight in the chair, brightened her smile, and said, “What’s going on with
him?”
“He’s been acting . . . different.”
“What do you mean?”
“Distant. Partly because he’s been working so many hours at the buggy shop.
Mamm
said she barely sees him except for church service. He leaves early in the morning
and comes home late. But when he is around, he’s quiet.”
“That doesn’t sound like him,” Katherine said. “Do you think he’s keeping something
from your
familye
?”
Something . . . or
someone
?
Despite Katherine’s vow not to care, her heart constricted again at the thought.
“I don’t know.” Mary Beth’s brown eyes had lost the warmth they’d held moments ago.
“He’s becoming like a stranger to me. To all of us. We’ve drifted apart.” Her smile
faded. “Like you and I have.”
Katherine shook her head in protest. “You know I’m always here for you.”
Tears welled in Mary Beth’s eyes.
Katherine drew back. “I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to make you cry.”
“I’m always crying.” Mary Beth wiped her eyes. “It makes Chris
ab im kopp
. Hormones, I’m sure.” She sniffed, wiping her eyes. “I’m glad we’re still best friends.”
Katherine hugged Mary Beth. “We always will be.”
Johnny Mullet put his hands on his hips and surveyed his new property. Four acres,
a small house, and an even smaller barn. All his.
The sad little farm didn’t look like much. But by the time he finished fixing everything
up, no one would recognize it. He glanced at the empty pasture on the left side of
the house. Tall grass, green and dense, swayed against a southerly breeze. He planned
to purchase that acreage too. Expand and make his horse farm something he could be
proud of.
If only
Daed
could see . . .
At the thought of his father, the grin faded from his face.
Hochmut
, his father would say. Pride.
The worst character flaw any Amish could have.
But was there something wrong with feeling satisfied after hard work? After a job
well done?
This wasn’t about pride. It was about independence. Making a good living. He’d seen
his family struggle. He didn’t want that for his future. A future that, God willing,
wouldn’t include only him.
With the hazy orange sun dipping below the horizon, Johnny hopped into his buggy and
headed home. Ten minutes later he arrived at his parents’ house. He was late for supper.
Again. He quickly put up his horse and hurried into the house, sliding into his seat
just as his father closed his eyes for grace.
After prayer, his mother passed his father a platter of ham. He speared a slice with
his fork, peering at Johnny as he did. “Long day at work again?”
Johnny picked up a roll from the basket on the table. He drew in a deep breath.
“Nee.”
“Then why are you late?”
“I bought a farm.”
Silence. Johnny glanced around the table. Caleb’s mouth dropped open, and Micah’s
fork was poised in midair. Even
six-year-old Eli gave him a funny look. “You what?” His mother’s eyes went wide with
shock.
“You know that house down the road a piece? The one with the barn in the back?”
“You mean that shack?” Caleb shook his head.
Micah scooped up a forkful of green beans. “Calling it a shack is a stretch.”
Their father cleared his throat. The boys ducked their heads and kept eating. He turned
to Johnny. “When did you do this?”
“Signed the paperwork yesterday.”
“Where did you get the money?”
He was already tired of the third degree, but he had expected no less. “Savings. From
my job at Gideon Bender’s.”
“You must have gotten it for a song,” Caleb added. “Or less than a song. Maybe just
a note.” He chuckled.
“Caleb.” His father shot him a silencing look before turning to Johnny again. “I wish
you had consulted me first.”
“I’m an adult,
Daed
. I didn’t think I had to.” Seeing the flash of hurt in his father’s eyes, he added,
“Trust me. I know what I’m doing.”
“I hope so.”
“Maybe you two could discuss this after supper?”
Mamm’s
lips pinched into a thin line. “The food is getting cold.”
Daed
nodded and dug into his food. No one said anything for the rest of the meal. But
all Johnny could think about was the disappointed look on his father’s face.
Cora Easley gripped the smartphone in her hand. “The doctor wants me to do what?”
“He’d like to see you again,” the nurse repeated in a crisp, emotionless tone. “As
soon as possible.”
“Why?”
“He’d like to run a few more tests.”
“How many more tests does he need?” Cora looked down at the bruise on her arm from
the blood draw she’d received a few days ago. For months she’d been poked, prodded,
scanned, and questioned. The dehumanizing madness had to stop. Her weary body couldn’t
take it anymore.
“You tell Dr. Clemens I’m through with his tests. If he doesn’t have a treatment plan
by now, clearly I need to see a more competent doctor.”
Silence on the other line. The nurse cleared her throat. “Mrs. Easley, Dr. Clemens
is just being thorough.”
“Too thorough, if you ask me.”
“Are you refusing more testing?”
“Yes. That’s exactly what I’m doing.”
A pause. “I’ll mark that in your chart. You’ll still need to meet with Dr. Clemens
at your earliest convenience. He will want to talk to you.”
“And I want to talk to him.” This nonsense had gone on long enough. She already had
a diagnosis—Parkinson’s. What she didn’t have was a cure.
After making her appointment, Cora clicked off her phone and laid it on the glass
coffee table. She walked to the large window in her penthouse and looked at the landscape
in front of her. New York. The city of her birth, the place she’d lived all her life.
But everything had changed in the past few months, changes she never expected.
Her hands trembled. The shaking had worsened over the past two weeks. Dr. Clemens
had said to expect it. She hated that he was right.
Parkinson’s. The diagnosis terrified her. She’d briefly glanced at the literature
about the disease, only to promptly dispose of the pamphlets after reading about some
of the symptoms. Loss of memory. Loss of motor function. Loss of control.
Cora Easley had never been out of control. She’d dictated and orchestrated every aspect
of her life except for one. And now she was facing the possibility that within the
next couple of years, she wouldn’t even be in control of her bodily functions. What
kind of life was that? Not one she wanted to live.
“Señora?”
Cora turned to look at her maid, a faithful servant for the past several years. If
it hadn’t been for Manuela, her grandson, Sawyer, wouldn’t have found out the truth
about his parents and the reason his mother ran off with his father. Or the story
behind the estranged relationship she had with her daughter, Kerry, and how Kerry
had tried to mend the rift between them. Cora’s stubbornness had thwarted that. And
now her grandson didn’t seem to want to have anything to do with her.