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The loaf of bread is a perfect brick shape, the crust a warm honey brown, the sides golden. Lydia bakes the bread the day before but under orders from Beatrice Sin-clair she does not slice it. She has placed the bread and a serrated knife on the breadboard, next to Mr. Sinclair, on his left side. It is Mr. Sinclair’s duty to slice the bread at breakfast. He does so now, cutting off four pieces, and passes the breadboard first to his wife, who takes one, and then to his daughter, who takes another.

“Have two slices, Anna,” her father says, still holding the breadboard in front of her.

“The two left are for you,” Anna replies.

“I can cut more.”

Her mother pushes his hand away. “Anna is watching her waistline,” she says.

“She doesn’t need to watch her waistline,” her father says. “She looks just perfect to me.”

Anna smiles at him gratefully and he takes advantage of her gratitude. “So what do you think, Anna? Do you think we still need Singh?”

She will not fall into her father’s trap. Her parents may argue, but they always end up on the same side. “Mummy must still need him,” she says, hoping she has found a middle ground that will please them both.

“Yes. Singh takes care of my orchids,” Beatrice Sin-clair says.

“Hmm.” Her husband raises his chin and brings his lips together.

“Besides,” Beatrice says, “we can’t just let him go. He’s been with us too long. If we let him go, we’ll have to give him a pension.”

“I’d rather give him a pension than have him walking up and down the lawn doing nothing,” John Sinclair says.

“He’s not doing
nothing
,” her mother responds adamantly.

John Sinclair reaches for the serving dish in front of him. Lydia has prepared sardines with onions. She has aligned the silvery fish in rows in the middle of the oval platter. On the top, she has put glistening circles of sliced raw onions and surrounded them with red tomatoes on green lettuce leaves. The arrangement is beautiful, almost too good to eat.

John Sinclair offers the platter to his wife. She is still simmering from his response. Her lips are pursed. “In any case,” she says emphatically, spooning two sardines and some of the garnish on her plate, “I need Singh.”

That is the end of that, Anna thinks, but her father gets in one last stab. “You know, Anna, your mother does not need Singh to weed her flowerbeds or to help her with her orchids.”

He is looking across the table directly at her, deliberately bypassing her mother. It is a strategy he sometimes uses, one that unnerves her mother. Anna wants to say,
Speak to her, not to me, she’s your wife
, but her father has rescued her from her mother’s criticism. Her mother’s comment about her waistline was not benign. Anna has lost all the weight she gained when her husband left her, but her mother has not ceased to intimate with her constant reminders, wrapped deceptively under the guise of the solicitous urgings of a concerned parent, that if not for her ballooning waistline her husband might have returned to her, or, at the very least, another man would be attracted to her.

It bothers Anna that at her age she should allow her mother to have this power over her, that her mother’s one remark about her waistline should have her harboring desires for vengeance. It irritates her more to admit she has dressed for her, that she has carefully chosen the outfit she is wearing because she knew it would please her. That she felt a warm flush in her chest when her mother said,
How lovely you look.

She will not come to her rescue. Her mother wants an ally, but she will keep her head averted, her eyes focused on her father.

“Your mother needs Singh,” her father says, “so she can have someone to boss around. Singh does what she tells him to do.”

For five long minutes they eat in silence—an eternity it seems to Anna. Neither says a word to the other. Her mother lowers her head and concentrates on the food on her plate, carefully placing pieces of sardines on the back of her fork. Anna feels embarrassed for her. She cannot deny her mother enjoys her role as mistress, as boss of the domestic affairs of her home, but her husband has exposed her in the presence of her daughter.

She is about to say something flattering to her mother when her father reaches for his wife’s hand. “Which man would mind doing some little thing for the most beautiful woman in the world?” he says to her.

To Anna’s surprise, her mother’s eyes light up.

After breakfast they go their separate ways, Anna to her room to fetch a novel she plans to read in the veranda. It’s a luxury she will permit herself today. Tomorrow will be time enough to begin the work she has brought with her from Equiano Books. Tomorrow, with her blue pencil she will tackle the manuscript from a new writer she has recently discovered. Today, she will read a polished work that does not need her critical eye.

The veranda is the coolest part of the Sinclairs’ sprawling one-story ranch-style house. The home was designed for them by an architect, a local man trained in America, in the ’50s when ranch-style houses were
de
rigueur
, and is unquestionably the most fashionable in their neighborhood. The problem, though, is the ceilings are low and trap the heat inside. Fortunately, Anna’s mother had insisted on a covered veranda with cool terrazzo floors. It is a large veranda, with high ceilings made of polished dark wood, and extends along almost the entire length of the house, enough space to allow Mrs. Sinclair to entertain large parties outside of the living room. There are three sets of wicker furniture in the veranda, which Mrs. Sinclair has made comfortable with plump, colorful cushions, a bar with six stools for Mr. Sinclair, as well as a powder room for the ladies. To provide privacy for his client on the side of the veranda that faces the street, the architect built a low wall punctuated with five enormous U-shaped dips above which hang huge baskets of green fern. Right angled to this wall are glass sliding doors which open to the living and dining rooms. Mrs. Sinclair has arranged a rock garden around a tall red-trunked palm tree in an uncovered section of the veranda, and in another uncovered part she has allowed Mr. Sinclair to build a pond for his fish. Anna guesses that her father is at the pond, feeding his fish. She will chat with him awhile before settling down with her novel.

As she approaches the corridor that leads to the kitchen, she overhears her mother giving instructions to Lydia for their lunch. “Use plenty of garlic and thyme. Mr. Sinclair likes his food seasoned well.”

They are both facing the sink, their backs toward her. They cannot see her and they do not hear her when she slips into the breakfast room and waits, partially hidden by the wall bordering the open-arched entranceway to the kitchen. Her mother is standing close to Lydia, her body bent toward her, her head and shoulders just inches away. Next to her mother’s butterscotch brown complexion, Lydia’s plum-colored skin seems darker than it is, almost purple. A light film of sweat that has spread across the back of Lydia’s neck and along her bare arms glistens in the sunlight streaming through the kitchen window. Under a gray apron, she is wearing old, faded clothes: a brown skirt and a blue jersey. The apron is rumpled and stained, but the skirt and jersey are clean and pressed. These are not the clothes Lydia wears to work. She wears fashionable clothes to work, bought for her in America by a son who, like many immigrants, sends her, three times a year, a barrel packed with clothes and food and things for her house. He’s a good son, she says, though she wishes he had not emigrated. She misses him; he is her only child, but America is the land of opportunity, she tells Anna. Look at you. You leave too. My son come back when he save enough money to buy a house here.

Lydia is Anna’s age, but it is difficult to tell. Her breasts sag, her stomach rises like leavened bread, her waistline has long expanded. Lines crease her forehead, gray hair sprouts around her hairline. Her dark brown eyes have long lost their sparkle; the skin under them is purple. Her mouth spreads quickly and easily into a smile, but when it settles again, her thick lips gather tightly together, a defense against the world. For years, she lived with a man who beat. It has only been seven years, the length of time she has worked for the Sin-clairs, since she had the courage to leave him.

Anna’s mother is pointing to a bowl of frozen raw chicken on the counter next to the sink. “Use lime to clean it,” she says to Lydia, “but not too much. I don’t want to taste lime in the stew.”

Lydia’s back is rigid, her shoulders and head stiff. She does not move. She says nothing in response to Mrs. Sinclair’s instructions. She just stands there. Silent.

Anna can barely hear her mother, but she can tell she is continuing to issue more instructions to Lydia. Then she raises her voice: “You understand what I want you to do, Lydia?”

Lydia draws damp hands down her apron. “Miss Sinclair, I understand a long time now what you want me to do.”

Lydia’s tone is carefully calibrated. It suggests neither insolence nor slavish acquiescence. There is almost a childishly innocent ring to her words, but Anna is certain that her mother cannot fail to realize that she has been rebuked, reprimanded. Of course Lydia knows what she has to do. There is no question: Lydia is a much better cook than her mother is now.

“You’re a good worker,” Mrs. Sinclair says.

Lydia tosses her head and laughs.

If Lydia is appeased, Anna is not. She is bristling, burning up with indignation. Her mother spoke to Lydia as if she were a headmistress, Lydia a schoolgirl; as if she were an overseer, a boss on a plantation. Lydia well knows her parents’ taste. Her father is right. But it is not only Singh her mother needs to boss around; she needs to boss Lydia too. How important she must feel to have two workers in her service whom she can control.

This is the legacy of colonial rule on the island, the manner of the colonizer toward the colonized mimicked now by the island’s middle class.

Even as she thinks this, Anna knows she is being unfair. Her mother may consider Singh and Lydia her social inferiors but she does not question their humanity. If by chance one of them were to dive in a pool where she is swimming, she would not order the management to drain the water. The English were famous for doing things like that on the island. In England they posted signs that read:
NO DOGS, NO COLORED.

Lydia is nodding her head now. She is saying agreeably, “Yes, Mrs. Sinclair. You’re right, Mrs. Sinclair.” Anna is offended for her sake, but Lydia does not seem bothered. “I don’t use so much salt the next time like you say, Miss Sinclair.”

Anna walks away. She has her hand on the sliding glass door in the dining room and is about to go to the veranda with her book when her mother calls her. “Anna.” Her mother’s voice is subdued, soft for a woman who only moments ago seemed to be demanding that her authority be acknowledged. Anna has no choice but to turn around. She is just steps away, within hearing distance. It would be rude to pretend she has not heard her mother.

“Will you take a message to Singh for me?” Her mother brushes her hand across her face. The movement is slow, limp. “Tell him to work on the seedlings in the nursery today. If he has time, he should clean up the anthurium beds.” Her mother’s hand drops to her side as if a weight is attached to it. She seems tired, her energy suddenly drained. The circles under her eyes are darker than they were at breakfast.

Guilt rises in Anna’s chest. Has her father’s unkind comment about her mother’s bossiness taken its toll in spite of the compliment he gave her afterward? Was that scene with Lydia just her mother’s way of restoring her dignity? Shouldn’t she have been more sympathetic? Lydia seemed very capable of defending herself. Lydia does not need her sympathy.

“Singh is expecting you,” Anna says. “He told Daddy he’s waiting for you in the garden. Something about the orchids.”

Her mother sighs. “I have to do everything,” she grumbles. “Take care of the cooking
and
the gardening.”

Anna feels her anger rising again, but she restrains herself. In the mildest tone she can muster, she says, “Lydia can do the cooking, Mummy. You don’t have to do it. And if you tell Singh what to do, you don’t have to stay in the garden.”

“You don’t understand,” her mother says.

“What don’t I understand, Mummy?”

“In this country,” her mother says slowly, measuring out each word, “you can’t just leave people to do what you tell them to. They have to be supervised.”

She means the working class, she means people like Lydia and Singh. But Anna knows that if it seems people in the working class need to be supervised, it is because they see no future for themselves in the work they are consigned to do.

“You are wrong, Mummy.”

“You don’t live here,” her mother responds. “You don’t know.”

Her mother’s words sting her to the core. She may not live here, but her roots are here. She was born here; she spent the first eighteen years of her life here; this is her country too. She wants to say all this, but her mother does not look well. Her skin is dull and her eyes lack luster. She has taken one verbal assault from her husband, she does not need another. “I’ll give Singh your message,” Anna says quietly.

“Good.” Her mother draws her hands across her lips. “I think I’ll rest awhile in my room.”

Anna hesitates by the door. For a moment she thinks of following her mother to her bedroom, of asking if she needs her help, but she changes her mind. It is hot in the house; she wants to be outside. She wants to sit in the shade of the veranda. She wants to take off her sandals and rest her feet on the cool terrazzo tiles. And she is here for a month. There will be time enough for talks with her mother.

C
HAPTER 2

S
ingh is in the nursery. He is sitting on a tiny wood bench, a child’s bench, brushing something from his lips, crumbs from the dhalpourie he has just eaten for breakfast. At his feet are a thermos and a paper bag crumpled into a ball. His bicycle is leaning against the sapodilla tree. He has tied it to the tree trunk with brown rope. It is an ancient bicycle. A black Raleigh, made in England. The letters
Raleigh
, scrawled across the crossbar, are painted green and bordered in white. For the barest second, Anna catches her breath, her windpipe contracting with the flash of remembrance: the smell of bicycle oil heating up in the sun, staining the edge of her dress when she gets on. She is ten. “The spokes will get rusty if you don’t oil them down,” her father says. It is her first bicycle, a gift for coming first in exams in her class.

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