A Morning for Flamingos (32 page)

“He’s a speed freak.”

“Yeah, maybe because of his last few months’ service in Vietnam.”

“What about it?”

“Talk to Minos,” he said, got out of the truck, and looked back at me through the window. “Good luck on this. Remember what I said. Get what you can and let the devil take the rest.”

Then he crossed the street and walked through the park toward St. Charles, his attention already focused on the college kids playing football by the lake. The streetcar clattered loudly down the tracks in front of the Tulane campus across the avenue. I went to a small grocery store a few blocks down St. Charles, where the owner provided tables inside for working people to eat their lunch at, and called Minos at his office to see if he had relocated Kim in a safe house. I also wanted to know what he had learned about Tony’s history in Vietnam, besides the fact that as an addict Tony had been locked up in a psychiatric unit rather than treated for addiction.

Minos wasn’t in. But in a few hours I was to learn Tony’s story on my own, almost as though he had sawed a piece of forgotten memory out of my own experience and thrust it into my unwilling hands.

I took Bootsie to lunch at an inexpensive Mexican restaurant on Dauphine before I drove back out to Tony’s. She looked wonderful in her white suit, black heels, and lavender blouse, and I think perhaps she had the best posture I had ever seen in a woman. She sat perfectly straight in her chair while she sipped from her wineglass or ate small bites of her seafood enchilada, her chin tilted slightly upward, her face composed and soft.

But it was too crowded for us to talk well, and I was beset with questions that I did not know how to frame or ask. I guess my biggest concern about Bootsie was a selfish one. I wanted her to be just as she had been in the summer of 1957. I didn’t want to accept the fact that she had married into the Mafia, that she was business partners with the Giacano family, that financial concern was of such great importance in her life that she would not extricate herself from the Giacanos.

For some reason it was as though she had betrayed me, or betrayed the youth and innocence I’d unfairly demanded she be the vessel of. What an irony, I thought: I’d killed off a large portion of my adult life with alcohol, driven away my first wife, delivered my second wife, Annie, into a nightmare world of drugs and psychotic killers, and had become a professional Judas who was no longer sure himself to whom he owed his loyalties. But I was still willing to tie Bootsie to the moralist’s rack.

“What’s bothering you?” she asked.

“What if we just give it all up? Your vending machine business, your connection with those clowns, my fooling around with the lowlifes and the crazoids. We just eighty-six it all and go back to New Iberia.”

“It’s a thought, isn’t it?”

“I mean it, Boots. You only get one time on the planet. Why spend any more of it confirming yesterday’s mistakes?”

“I have to tell you something.”

“What?”

“Not here. Can we be together later tonight?”

“Yeah, sure, but tell me what, Boots?”

“Later,” she said. “Can you come for supper at the house?”

“I think I can.”

“You
think?”

“I’m trying to tie some things up.”

“Would you rather another night?” She looked at a distant spot in the restaurant.

“No, I’ll do everything I can to be there.”

“You’ll do
everything?”

“What time? I’ll be there. I promise.”

“They’re not easy people to deal with, are they? You don’t always get to set your own schedule, do you? You don’t have control over everything when you lock into Tony Cardo’s world, do you?”

“All right, Bootsie, I was hard on you.”

“No, you were hard on both of us. When you love somebody, you give up making decisions just for yourself. I loved you so much that summer I thought we had one skin wrapped around us.”

I looked back at her helplessly.

“Six-thirty,” she said.

“All right,” I said. Then I said it again. “And if anything goes wrong, I’ll call. That’s the best I can do. But I know I’ll be there.”

And I was the one who’d just suggested we eighty-six it all and go back to Bayou Teche.

Her dark eyes were unreadable in the light of the candle burning inside the little red chimney on the table.

When I got back to Tony’s house, I hid the tape recorder in my closet. The house was empty, so quiet that I could hear clocks ticking. I put on my gym shorts and running shoes, jogged for thirty minutes through the neighborhood and along Lakeshore Drive, then tried to do ten push-ups out on the lawn. But the network of muscles in my left shoulder was still weak from the gunshot wound, and after three push-ups I collapsed on my elbow.

I showered, put on a pair of jeans and a long-sleeved sports shirt, and walked out by the pool with a magazine just as Tony and Jess came through the front gate in the Lincoln, with the white limo behind them.

Tony slammed the car door and walked toward me, pulling off his coat and tie.

“Come inside with me. I got to get a drink,” he said. He kept pulling off his clothes as he went deeper into the house, kicking his shoes through a bedroom door, flinging his shirt and trousers into a bathroom, until he stood at the bar in his Jockey undershorts. His body was hard, knotted with muscle, and beaded with pinpoints of perspiration. He poured four inches of bourbon into a tumbler with ice and took a big swallow. Then he took another one, his eyes widening above the upended glass.

“I think I’m heading into the screaming meemies,” he said. “I feel like somebody’s pulling my skin off with pliers.”

“What is it?”

“I’m a fucking junkie, that’s what it is.” He poured from the decanter into his glass again.

“Better ease up on the fluids.”

“This stuff’s like Kool-Aid compared to what my system’s used to. What you’re looking at, Dave, is a piece of cracked ceramic. Those guys are weirding me out, too. We’re in my real estate office out by Chalmette, and I’m talking to my salespeople at a meet while the guys are milling around out there by the front desks. These salespeople are mostly middle-class broads who pretend they don’t know what other kinds of businesses I’m in. So we end the meet and walk out to the front door and everybody is bouncy and laughing until they see the guys comparing different kinds of rubbers they bought at some sex shop. It’s like my life is part of a Marx Brothers comedy. Except it ain’t funny.”

He put his head down on the bar. “Oh man, I ain’t fucking gonna make it.”

“Yeah, you will.”

“Have you ever seen a set-brain ward at the V.A.? They wear Pampers, they drool on themselves, they eat mush with their hands. I’ve been there, man, and this is worse.”

“I’ve had dead people call me up long-distance. Do you think it gets any worse than that?” I said.

“You think that’s a big deal? I’ll tell you about a smell—” He stopped and drank out of his glass. The ice clinked against the sides. His eyes were dilated. “Come inside, I want to show you something.”

He picked up the decanter and walked out the side door onto the lawn. Jess looked up from dipping leaves out of the pool.

“Hey, Tony, you forgot your pants,” he said, then saw the expression on Tony’s face and said, “So it’s a good day to get some sun.”

I followed Tony across the lawn, through the trees, and past the goldfish ponds and birdbaths and tennis court to the back wall of his property. A hooded air vent protruded from the ground close to the base of the wall.

“Find it,” he said.

“What?”

“The trapdoor.”

“I don’t see one.”

He bent over and pulled on an iron ring set next to a sprinkler head, and a door covered with grass sod raised up out of the lawn and exposed a short, subterranean stairwell.

“It’s an atom bomb shelter,” he said. “But I heard the guy who built it used to pump the maid down here.”

We went down inside, and he clicked on a light and pulled the door shut with a hanging rope. The walls and floor were concrete, the roof steel plate. There were two bunk beds inside the room, a pile of moldy K rations in one corner, and a stack of paperback novels and a disassembled AR-15 rifle on top of a bridge table.

“I come down here when things are bugging me,” he said. “Sometimes I make up a picnic basket and Paul and me spend the night down here, like we’re camping. It’s got a chemical toilet, I can hook up a portable TV, nobody knows where I am unless I want them to know.”

He sat down on the bunk bed and leaned back against the concrete wall. A dark line of hair grew up the center of his stomach from the elastic band of his underwear. He stirred the ice in his drink with his finger. Then he was quiet for what seemed a long time.

“After I got hit they didn’t send me back to my old platoon,” he said. “Instead I got reassigned to a bunch of losers. Or maybe they’d just been out too long. One guy had a scalp lock from a woman on his rifle, another guy gave a little boy a heat tab and told him it was candy. Anyway, I didn’t like any of them. Which was all right, because they didn’t like me, either, and they kept treating me like a newbie.

“So one night the lieutenant tells us to set up an ambush about four klicks up this trail, so we pass a real small ville by a stream after one klick and we go on another klick, and finally everybody says, ‘Fuck it, we sandbag it, let the loot set his own ambush.’

“But while we’re sitting out there in the dark it’s like everybody’s got something else on his mind. It’s hot and quiet, and water’s dripping out of the trees and we’re slapping mosquitoes and smelling ourselves and looking at our watches and thinking we got six more hours out here. Then the guy with the scalp lock on his rifle—his name was Elvis Doolittle, that’s right, I’m not making it up—Elvis rubs his whiskers with his hand and keeps looking back down the trail and finally he puts a cigarette in his mouth. The doc says, ‘What the fuck you doing, Elvis?’

“He says, ‘I’m going back to the ville.’

“Then nobody says anything. But everybody had seen these two teenage sisters with their mama-san in front of the hooch. And they know what Elvis is thinking. Then he says, ‘We’ll leave Mouse and the new guy. Nobody’ll know. That ville’s got something coming anyway. That booby trap that got Brown. They set it.’

“‘You don’t know that,’ Mouse says.

“‘If they didn’t set it, they know who did,’ Elvis says.

“Then they all talked it over and my heart started beating. Not because of what they were going to do, either, but because I was afraid to be left on the trail with just one guy.

“Elvis turns to me and says, ‘You ever say anything about this, you ain’t getting back home, man.’ Then they were gone. The trees were so thick all those guys just melted away into the blackness. You could hear monkeys clattering around in the canopy and night birds and sounds like sticks breaking out there in the jungle. Sweat was running out of my pot and my breath started catching in my throat. Then we hear something clank.

“Mouse whispers, ‘It’s up the trail. It’s up the fucking trail.’

“I tell him to be quiet and listen, and he says, ‘It’s NVA, man.’

“I tell him to shut up again, but he says, ‘They dideed out on us, man. It ain’t right. I ain’t staying.’

“His eyes look big as half-dollars under his pot, and I’m trying to act cool, like I got it under control, but the sweat keeps burning my eyes and my hands are shaking so bad it’s like I got malaria. Then I hear something up the trail again.

“‘That’s it,’ Mouse says. ‘Let’s get out of here.’

“I put my hand on his arm. ‘All right, man, we go back to the ville,’ I say. ‘But what are you gonna do with what you see back there?’

“‘I ain’t gonna see nothing,’ he says. ‘It ain’t my business. I got eighteen more days, then it’s back to the world. I ain’t gonna get pulled into no court-martial, either. You do what you want to, Cardo.’

“He takes off, and a minute later I follow him, tagging along like a punk to something I don’t even want to know about, all because I’m scared.

“When we get back to the ville, Elvis has put all the zips in their hooches and has sent the doc with a flashlight into the hooch that’s got the two teenage sisters. The doc comes out and says, ‘They’re clean,’ and then Elvis and this big black dude go in. About ten minutes later Elvis comes out fixing his fly and sees me and Mouse squatting by the trail.

“‘You dumb shits,’ he says. ‘You get the fuck back up that trail.’

“‘I ain’t gonna do it, Elvis,’ Mouse says.

“He grabs Mouse by the back of his shirt and pulls him up out of the dirt, just like you pick up a dirty clothes bag.

“‘Fuck you, man. We’re not going back up there by ourselves,’ I say. ‘We heard something clank up there. You dideed out on us. They get through, your ass is in a sling.’

“He’s frozen there, with Mouse hanging from his fist. He says, ‘What d’you mean, something clanked?’

“Before I can answer an old man runs across the clearing out of nowhere and tries to get in the hooch, where a couple of other guys are taking their turn inside. He’s yelling in gook, and the big black dude is holding him by the wrists, and everybody’s laughing. Then one of the sisters starts screaming inside, and more zips are coming out of their hooches, and it’s all starting to deteriorate in a hurry. Elvis lets loose of Mouse and walks fast across the clearing just as the two guys come back out of the hooch.

“One of them is the guy who gave the kid a heat tab. He and Elvis look at each other, then the guy says, ‘The shit’s already in the fire, man.’

“The old man goes in the hooch, and there’s more yelling inside, and Elvis says, ‘What’d you do to her?’

“The guy, the heat-tab guy, says, ‘Nothing you didn’t.’

“But the guy who was in there with him says, ‘He told her he’d kill her baby if she didn’t blow him.’

“By that time I just wanted to get out of there, so I don’t know who threw the grenade. I was already headed down the trail when I heard it go off. But somebody threw it right in the door of the hooch, with the two sisters and the old man and maybe a baby inside. Then I started running. When I looked back I could see the sparks above the trees from the burning hooch. I don’t know if they killed anybody else there or not. I never asked, and I never told anybody about it. The next day I volunteered to work in the mortuary at Chu Lai.”